Saturday, April 4, 2009
the only reason i'm here is cos of my dear friend, art!
aarthi, you seriously be touched okay(:
haha okay moving on, this week has been such an awesomezx mainly cos of the TRIPLE RAFFLESIAN VICTORY WHOO!~
1st Victory: RG IND'S AWESOME SYF GOLD WITH HONOURS!
2nd Victory: RJ IND'S SUPERB SYF GOLD WITH HONOURS!
3rd Victory: Sorsilambum Tamil Debate, Team RJC'S CHAMPIONS!
haha raffles is so awesome(: we fight well, we win well!
well, the next thing that's about to rock the show is, RG INO'S SYF! (: go ino, we can totally do this!
we'll fight in the sun, we'll fight in the rain;
we'll fight to give our school a name;
RAFFLES <3
Monday, March 30, 2009
okay whee here I am!
an update about my life! yeah i'm alive (and kicking) with so many happenings happened ever since my last update at the start of the year! Sec 3's been awesome, especially with me turning 15 and all!
like i was thinking a few days back, right now my life's so perfect that there's nothing more i could possibly ask!
i've been bleesed with so many subtle small fulfilling pleasures in life: great school, great class, great friends, great teachers, great family, great God!
you know sometimes, when everything else seems to screw up, after a while you realise that it is meant to be the way it is.
it is meant to be for me to be born into such an awesome family with great dad, mum and 2 really lovely sisters!
it is meant to be for me to have had an awesome 6 years in primary school and continue the next phase of my education in rgs
it is meant to be for me to have forged great awesome friendships here in rgs, to have friends who really care
it is meant to be for me to have joined an awesome board (PSB) and learn so many things about me, about myself through my service to the school in this avenue
it is meant to be for me to have a really good friend (who practically knows every single detail of my life) to stay up, keep me company while webcamming online. (NISHA, THIS IS FOR YOU, BE TOUCHED)
it is meant to be for me to have met the four awesome people in my life (YES THE THREE OF YOU, you know who you are!), especially since we only knew each other like since the start of Feb
when life has so many things destined, so many things that are 'meant to be', why do we even question it?
life's too short to question it or live it with any regrets.
peace out,
vicky(:
Thursday, January 1, 2009
okay, now it's 2009.
Wow, that's real fast I'd say. Alot of stuff happened this year, being a mixture of ups and downs. But ah well, see the year has come to an end in a pretty good note right? (:
Dedications. Thanks to everyone, yes everybody, for sharing all those crap memories with, laughing like morons in public places, singing Christmas carols in public (haha TRIBUNE!), and most importantly for playing a vital part of my life, bringing in joy to me every other day by being by my side when I needed you'll.
Well, I hope 2009 will be an equally exciting and fulfilling year for me, as I continue venturing to horizons beyond. There'd be guaranteed to be ups AND downs, but with such awesome and wonderful people around you, definitely you'd enjoy the ups to your best, and decrease the impact of the downs by loads too!
Our Sec 2 classes are all parting ways, but it's time to make new friends and make our experience in RGS even more fruitful and worthy! I'd try to not repeat my mistakes again in 09, and learn and grow from them.
Stuff I'm looking forward to for 09(in no order of merit):
- 301'09 (Class for TWO years! I'm very excited already)
- 106'09 (I am REALLY anticipating this. All the cute little Sec Ones who we're gonna mentor and conduct PSL sessions with, while guiding them along into fitting into RG!)
- PSB'09 (YEAH, PretSeLs! I love all of you guys already, and we'd do an awesomezx job together during our PSL term, okay?)
- Tribune '09 (I know for sure we're gonna be so closely-knit, and like miranda said, a small bonded family. I'm so glad and it's so fulfilling seeing that the chalet has done wonders)
- Tribune excp '09 (hahaha these bunch of crazy people are defnitely the <3! remember our random camwhoring sessions during exco meetings and then the last-minute-chionging. We'll do an awesomezx job for 09 okay!)
- INO SYF'09 (yeah, INO is so totally awesome that we're gonna rock this SYF! :D Looking forward to the practice sessions and all before syf and all those random moments when we become high HAHA)
- ICS SHOW'09 (NIZHAL! yay Kalachitra was awesomely fun, so will this! Reliving the Kalachitra memories is definitely something I want to do!)
- VAINs study group '09 (Remember we said we wont part ways, so this MUST continue, when we mug together and slack and do crazy stuff together. Next year'll be fun as we have interesting experiences of our own that we could all share!)
- HSSRP RS group '09 (ANOTHER AWESOME GROUP! yay RS for 2 years. We'd do a really great job, okay!)
- All those fun new friends that I'd make along the way.
See, tell me, with all these exciting things ahead, how can 2009 not be a blast? x)
Anyway peeps, 30 MORE DAYS as of 1 JAN 09. Go figure it out!
Friday, December 5, 2008
i'm just praying hard that some miracle happens.
my high spirits throughout the week just vanished from the earth and beyond, and i really want to 'retrieve' it back.
please, give me back what's rightfully mine.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
People killing people dying
Children hurtin you hear them crying
Can you practice what you preach
Would you turn the other cheek?
Father father father help us
Send us some guidance from above
Cause people got me got me questioning
Where is the love?
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WHERE IS THE LOVE?
60 hours
195 dead
22 foreigners
15 security personnel
5 Americans
2 French Nationals
2 Australians
2 Canadians
1 Japanese
1 German
1 British Cypriot
1 Italian
1 Thai
1 Singaporean hostage
nearly 300 injured
What have these innocent people done to incur your wrath and to satisfy your crazy devilish devour for people, for lives? What have these innocent people done so that the world can hear your malicious laughter?
Look left, look right, look everywhere. They all have one thing common : Yes, blood and dead bodies strewn all over with a sullen echo of gunshots and more gunshots.
Why, why has the value of a human's life been degraded to such a level of ruthlessness, so much so that it's being treated like a game. I play, I win. Why, why such a mindset?
Please I plead, do hear our cries, crying out loud.
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Life is not a war game where you kill when you feel like it.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
RICE: Count On Our Grains Brains!
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Well, thinking and reflecting about this year, I have two words to sum it all up.
Interesting. Refreshing.
The new experiences and insights gained, the challenges faced, the tough times and the merry-making memories, they've all been interesting and refreshing.
And through all these, I'll attribute all these memories to the wonderful loving fun class of 207. We came in as people of different class sprits. I can still vividly remember the first time we stepped into E311, when we found ourselves seats, members from 107 and 108 had this what seemed invisible margin drawn in the middle of the class. Recess was unspeakable, 107ers huddled in their own corner, like wise the 108ers.
Well, let's juxtapose that to now, where we all have a common class spirit. Where we all so hate the fact that we were leaving E311, that housed us for the past year. Where we had so many fond memories together as a class. Where we all held farewells for teachers in mid-year. Where we all partied wildly during the class parties. Where we all prepared for interclass competitions and cheered our peers on. Where we all hated tearing down the class decor that has bagged us a third and stayed with us throughout the year, throughout our trials and tribulations. Where we all felt the heart-ache and hard work as we took down the stars hanging from the ceiling from La Stariesta. Where we all formed the ring of love and sang songs on the last day of school. Where we all received our progress reports for Year 2 of our Secondary school life. Where we all hugged and (some) cried when the school bell rang, signalling the end of the school term. That's a whole lot of memories, isn't it?
From the perspective of the class chairpersons of the class, I'll fully admit that 207 isn't flawless. There have been times where things just didn't seem as great as one would expect them to be. There have been times where I've gotten really pissed off with the class and all. But just as well, I can wholeheartedly also admit that I must be indeed blessed, lucky and fortunate to belong to this class of crazily fun-loving and dynamic 36 individuals. The most fond memories, loving times of my secondary school life (so far) had been mostly acquired by this very class Just like the envelope, that Ms Amanda Chong placed her little bookmarks as souvernirs and gave them to us, read:
I'll fully agree that we are indeed a class full of extroverts with MORE THAN ENOUGH energy to split atoms.
To make and mould 207 to where it is today, it is the commitment and care of every single member of the class. It is the love and reponsibility of every single member of the class. To work towards a vibrant community where we can make worthwhile of our memories here in RG. With so much care and love, the least I can possibly do is to extend my gratitude to every single individual of the class to thank them for their lovely contributions to my memory of 207. The indescribable feeling of gratitude that I have to every one of you is way more than the words that I've mentioned here.
[to be continued...]
Saturday, October 18, 2008
haha, found a really cool thing! sent me laughing and seriously made my day man :D
lol obviously there are people in this world have way too much spare time! (:
DORMITORY
When you rearrange the letters:
DIRTY ROOM
PRESBYTERIAN
When you rearrange the letters:
BEST IN PRAYER
ASTRONOMER
When you rearrange the letters:
MOON STARER
DESPERATION
When you rearrange the letters:
A ROPE ENDS IT
THE EYES
When you rearrange the letters:
THEY SEE
GEORGE BUSH
When you rearrange the letters:
HE BUGS GORE
THE MORSE CODE
When you rearrange the letters:
HERE COME DOTS
SLOT MACHINES
When you rearrange the letters:
CASH LOST IN ME
ANIMOSITY
When you rearrange the letters:
IS NO AMITY
ELECTION RESULTS
When you rearrange the letters:
LIES - LET'S RECOUNT
SNOOZE ALARMS
When you rearrange the letters:
ALAS! NO MORE Z 'S
A DECIMAL POINT
When you rearrange the letters:
I M A DOT IN PLACE
THE EARTHQUAKES
When you rearrange the letters:
THAT QUEER SHAKE
ELEVEN PLUS TWO
When you rearrange the letters:
TWELVE PLUS ONE
AND FOR THE GRAND FINALE:
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MOTHER-IN-LAW
When you rearrange the letters:
WOMAN HITLER
haha and i bet that sent you guys awestruck and laughing! :D
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
i feel so cheated.
i feel so gullible.
i feel so hurt.
why even the people i thought were closest to me, i cant trust?
now as i'm typing this, i cant control the tears that's just running down my cheeks.
i dont know why, i dont know what are they. tears of remorse? tears of victimisation? i wonder.
whatever it is, now it's too late.
why, why am i SO susceptible?
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
hello world!
my dear wonderful deskmate STACYLIANINGXUAN<3>! and I, being our normal creative, crazy selfs with totally wack imaginations, composed a song together! The first sentence was suggested by KOJIAYUN and we carried on from this sentence.
Haha, so enjoy!
PS: It doesn't have a tune yet, so any kind souls out there can possibly suggest tunes xD
PPS: Comments on tagboard are greatly appreciated
Lyrics: Vicky, Stacy
Genre: Romance
Title: Without You
I can’t live without you
For you’re there lingering in my memory
Haunting me day and night
Filling my thoughts once again
If you ever want to leave me
There I am, clutching you tight
Close to my heart
I can’t live without you
If you ever find me not hot enough
Let me tell you
I am hot enough to melt you heart
If you ever find me not cool enough
Let me tell you
I am cool enough to freeze the time I spend with you
*CHORUS
Yeah, you’re the reason I’m alive
You’re the reason that I die
You’re the sun I see at the crack of dawn
The radiant glow that illuminates my soul
You’re the star I see in the vast dark sky
Shining demurely on me, telling me yes I can
Ooooooo. I love you
I can’t live without you
I smell your presence around me
In solitary soliloquy where I dwell
There you caught my mind
There you stole my gaze
I needn’t had to look back there I knew it was you
I can’t live without you
You are the world to me
I know I was wrong, I’m sorry
I feel so empty without you
There I am, grasping some hope from the past
Hey dear, now I realize yet again
I can’t live without you
*CHORUS X2
Ooooooo. Yeahhhhhh.
Without you
Without you
Without… you
Saturday, August 16, 2008
I was on my way to my home.
In the bus so bored alone.
Taking my time thinking of life.
Finding it so hard to go by.
The rain has started to flow.
Was dropping down at the window.
It was so misty and cold inside.
Again I felt so tired and sighed.
Then we had a small stop.
So I thought to have a cup of Hot tea.
While I was having its warmth.
Everything became cold by what I see.
It was a night a never forget,
Because of the sight that makes me regret.
That burns your heart and you soul.
And melts your to make tears flow.
There beside an old rugged tree.
I saw a girl with a child.
So young was she with her brother.
With a blanket of sack around like a wet feather.
I could see it clear they were trembling.
So wet were they so shivering.
It made me forget all around.
I just couldn't figure what I could do along.
I took my time go to them.
Gave them my blanket and some coins to spare.
But what made me break down at spot.
Was the stare the girl gave at a nod.
Even though rain pouring down her face.
I could see a tear flowing along the maze.
No words were need to explain why.
What made her happy that night.
I got on to my bus and saw them walk by.
Giving the coins and have some food to dine.
It gave me a happiness like never before.
And a reason to live along this fallen world along.
Sometimes, it's just time to get out of this solitary soliloquy. And care
Care for those who matter.
For there's a whole world out there full of needs and hurts.
But when is my calling?
Saturday, August 9, 2008
Okay time for an update :D
So yesterday was President Charity Launch Connect Singapore. Pretty great experience i’d say. Random and spastic and retarded photos on fb, so if you’d want go see. (:
Okay i'll update more some other time. i’ve got MATH *groans*, and geog to mug. Of which none of it I’m good at.
And on a side note, i think the president is a pretty cool person. Like really really cool :D
“Mr President, would you like to take a seat”
“No, why must I sit? I want to stand. I enjoy your company."
See, now you know why he’s cool :D
Sunday, July 13, 2008
and now the ultimate question being,
Do I really want to live my life the way I'm leading it now?
I'm desperately trying to look for a change in my life now. Alot of things I'm doing isnt right. Alot of things are screwed. Alot of things are wrongly prioritised. And I have this really bad habit of not sticking to my personal goals. I have this bad habit of procrastinating. I have this bad habit to slack the whole day away even though I know there's loads of things to be made right/done.
I keep saying I need the drive, I havent got the drive. But I've come to realise, how to get the drive, if I'm not searching for it, if I'm not looking for it.
I am searching for meaning, meaning of this life. Meaning for the motivation and drive to do what I've dreamt. Meaning to make dreams come true, cos in reality dreams do exist.
God, I pray to you, no matter how rocky the journey is with loads of obstacles, please give me the strength to bring me through it and carry on.
Because I really want to make a difference in the lives of the people and loved ones around me. I really want to make a difference to my own life.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
KALACHITRA 08!
was a reasounding success. i dont care about what the world says, but us ics members felt that it was awesomely and undeniably a big blast.
had ino practice from 8-10am in school, where mr mani was revising the whole 4 songs again and again. but i was really thankful for the practice, cos ino sounded like really SO MUCH MORE better during the show, it was really so much better than the rehearsals where everybody looked dead.
okay so after ino, we had tech run for ino in the hall. was okay lah, and then i was slacking with my third cousin, karthigah(YEAH she IS my cousin), crapping with her and all sorts of rubbish. we were like cheering on with the rest, while the other performances went on. alot of the performance made tremendous tremendous improvements, and it was really good.
oh and karthigah was telling me about smses she received at weird times of the day. hahha it was FUNNY!
okay so, then it was lunch. KOTHU PARATA(sp?)! yay chandra! oh and milo drinks that were kept in the magnolia cooler. yeah i wasnt able to finish lunch ): oh and i went giving time-out chocolates to a couple of people, cos everybody was like stressing and emoing like the day before.
hahah, and me being the usual random me, went to pose with jessica's campaign models. hahah it was damn funny. okay so after lunch, we went up to the hall where everybody was going crazy. the song people were practicing, and everybody else joined in and was singing(out of tune-ly), dancing, being high spastic and random and SINGING HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL SONGS of all things. i know we all turned crazy. and then the exco had their lunch and came in and everyone like got out of craziness.
razia, anjana and all these people were filling in coloured rice for the kuthuvilaku's decoration, while nageis, manee etc were doing the VARUGA thing in the foyer. it looked really really really great!
slacked a little, and at about 2.30, we needed to start getting to ino room for make-up and all. had briefing from razia and wala for 45mins or so. and the briefing was SO FUNNY. everybody had our screws loose, and we were behaving childishly/monkeyishly like as if we had some deprived childhood or something. and KAYALVILI, you're damn funny lah. cos while razia and wala was briefing is, kayal was giving background sound effects on the mridangam. she was moved from the mridangam to the front of the tamil room, to beside the two chairs because of her really-loosened screw and spasticness. everybody was rofling. and then we were supposed to indicate our presence, and razia was like say anything, and dharini went "AAJA NACHLE". hahahahha, and subsequently the other hindi dancers were doing so with loads of laughter in between.
okay so after the briefing, we moved to the ks chee theatre with our instruments. went to hunt for the cleanest toilet in school, but gave up and eventually landed in second floor toilet. so we washed our faces and went back to the hall to put foundation and all those make up.
yeah and so, i was on a wild-goose hunt for my sister, and then i saw MS shafali coming. hahha i think she was in a hurry or something, she didnt notice the VARUGA and accidentally stepped on the flowers. she went to the GYM, not GEEM, to see the hindi dancers and help them i think.
then it was tea! this time it was poori, but unfortunately cos they had to be packed, they were FLATTENED. so we ate flat pooris with milo again! i guess it was those milos that sustained us throughout actually! and then the hindi dancers and other performers came and joined us also, and they looked really gorgeous. oh and purnima was there also. yeah and then took some photos of people having their tea, or semi-dinner, or dinner or whatver you call it.
okay so i bought two tickets for irfanah, and her friend (who i realised just a couple of minutes ago, that irfanah's friend was AARTHI'S SECOND COUSIN! what a small small world!) yeah and so i was anticipating irfanah at the foyer, when the guests started arriving. i was really stressed cos i had to be in the ks chee already to prepare for ino's item. irfanah was caught in some traffic jam): i saw my perimma, and she reminded me that i havent worn my pottu. and i went "OMGOSH YA" and another wild-goose chase for the person in-charge for putting the pottus.
couldnt find razia, so srruthi helped me. (thanks srruthi!) yep and went back to the foyer again for more anticipation for irfanah and aarthi's second cousin. they finally came, and i stopped hyperventilating. passed the tickets to them, and went back to ks chee. it was then when i first APPRECIATED the strategical location of the ks chee, right next to the foyer.
and then the big part. THE SHOW STARTED.
in the ks chee, we got that news from a runner and that it'll be our turn in like 5 minutes to report. and so people again began hyperventialing, praying, etc etc. the veena section, us, were like revising the lines again, esp for bo shambo. okay then arthi prem came and informed us that a runner would be calling us in five minutes and everyone were all like freaking out a little. and so the runner came, and we took our instruments and went to the waiting area outside the hall. we were all like breathing in and breathing out and all, and then it was time to go backstage already. nitya was speaking then, and everybody else behind the curtains were like hugging and wishing each other good luck, praying and all. haha and then MRS SHIRLEY TAN gave a speech, that was unsurprisingly long, so we had more time to compose ourselves. then it was ino performance alr, wala and reichel introduced us and the curtains opened. i could like FEEL THE SPOTLIGHT HEAT, from where i was sitting, it was quite warm. and my mum, of all places has to sit right in front of where i was on the stage; she was seated behind nitya and ramyia who were in the first row beside mrs tan lah. okay moving on, yeah so mr mani came and we started with sarasara samarai. and bo shambo and so on. i thought ino was really really awesome, especially in bo shambo cos we havent played with this impact at all before. nitya and ramyia kept smiling at us, and i think that encouraged most of us to smile too. :D haha though pooni, shafali and all these people said our smiles look a lil forced, but it was great nevertheless.
okay so after ino performance, went to put back instruments in ino room, and rushed to gallery to enjoy the rest of the show. just in time for hindi song, which was great. and after that was AAJA NACHLE dance! go dancers, you guys really really rocked the stage and improved really loads, like alot! you guys really looked like our very own madhuri dixit : ria, stuti, aarthi, nisha, dharini, mansi, archana, aditi, kinnari. all of you. all of us were proud of you guys, and the coordination, the costumes, the energy everything was so vibrant and even some of the audience were bouncing and bobbing up and down on their seats, as we clapped to the aaja nachle beat! i esp loved the ending where all the dancers came together, cos it wasnt like that at all during rehearsals, and we were taken aback but everything still fitted together.
yeah so after the lovely awesome aaja nachle and soniye mil jaa amaglam was tamil singing. which was also quite cool and nice to tap to the beat. go singers!
and it was intermission. went to the canteen to find performers to round them up back to the gallery for curtain call at the end. haha and ended up bumping into pooni and all those people. they were talking about the effect of BO SHAMBO and how mr mani used to teach us songs in ino and all. pooni couldnt exactly finish her small vadais cos they were too maavu-ish for her and she force fed me those vadais. went to smuggle a milo packet upstairs, cos was practically dying of dehydration.
then when intermission was over, pooni, shafali and her friends joined the rest of the whole group of performers at the gallery. the hindi and tamil medley was good, and the singers looked really vibrant and talented. yay singers! :D
and the main highlight of the concert item : THE DRAMA. i would say it was a huge success. jokes that we rg people didnt find funny during rehearsals made the audience laugh a great deal, which is a really good thing. the kaathal yaanai varugira remo scene, the raghupathi raghava scene, the valayapatti dance, everything was perfect. and avpa people, the songs timing were really good! welllllll done to the drama cast for such an awesome splendid heartening performance:
LAVANYA KUMARESH
NAGEISWARI PARATHY
ARTHI PREMKUMAR
A.AARTHI (you absolutely rocked the stage, buddy!)
SMRITHI KEERTHIVARMAN
NIVRUTHI PRASAD
SHYAMA SADASHIV
K SOWNDARYA
haha and throughout the whole drama i was translating to shafali cos i've watched the drama like so many times, and she was like laughing like anything. see, even non-tamil speaking people LOVED the drama, that shows how much you guys rocked man! even MRS SHIRLEY TAN was laughing heartily as mentioned by aarthi!
oh and then the valayapathi dance, which rocked. by then i'd informed all the performers in the gallery to rush down immediately when the scholars started dancing. yay good, people didnt procrastinate and rushed down on time. then i arranged the people, and was like super stressed cos i was not sure whether everybody knew what to do, esp ino's performers cos we didnt practice curtain call the day before. had a difficult time splitting up ino performers, cos each side was like more uneven than the other. but in the end, we pulled off and AMAZING curtain call.
after which, was ramyia's vote of thanks. we were all like so happy and we cheered for everybody. at the end, everyone felt like doing raffles cheers as a symbolism to close the programme. i dont know how or why but everytime we make a success, it's just rather impulsive on us to cheer and celebrate and let raffles be part of us. i guess it's just the culture and unique school spirit that each and every one of us hold. yeah, did unite, regardless of the fact that we were all in our costumes and all. it was impactful, as always. (:
so after the cheers, were all the hugging, 'we did it' 'it was so great' 'man you rocked the stage' and all those exclaimings. (: and PHOTO TAKING! :D or rather camwhoring. haha yeah and then took a family photo with amma, appa, kanages and me :D kanages left with appa earlier, and i came home with amma. gave up waiting for the bus and cabbed home cos i was really really tired, cos i didnt sleep well the night before as well cos too excited anticipating the show.
and everything was over. how i miss kalachitra so much. how i miss the rehearsal sessions so much. how i miss the 'come on you can do better' naggings. everything just showcased us.
and if i would want another day for history to repeat itself in, it would definitely definitely be 5th July 08. I really want an encore, and really hope we can have another exciting show next year.
and i really love RGSICS as much as others do. (:
Friday, May 23, 2008
boo. my life's updates.
progress report collection : results sucked. but He answered my prayers by not giving me something real real bad. PRAISE THE LORD! :D but i guess i deserve those stuff in the report. comments were good, surprisingly. oh well, another bucking up mugathon for semester 2.
open house 08! : SATURDAY, TMR! really tiring manning booths and all, shift after shift. anyway, it's a die die must to visit the LIT booth, at the hut opposite the pavilion from 9AM TO 11AM. That is if you want to see ME, AARTHI, SHYAMA[who's relieving nisha], and RUOXI beyond recognition :D
sangamam 08 : actually i dint quite wanted to go for sangamam :X but since batchmates are going, maybe i should just go. (: we all expect some really cool and professional thing haha :D well going to aarthi's house, shower change and everything, then go for sangamam. gonna be tiring after open house, but it's okay cos it's alr the holidays! :D
boo update done. till next time, bye :D
Thursday, May 15, 2008
She strode over to her, sitting under the tree weeping silently to herself.
"Hey, what's wrong with you?" she asked, curiosity taking over her mind.
"I'm crying, can't you see?" snapping at her, rubbing her eyes in frustration, a vain attempt to stop the tears from flowing.
"But, you're not supposed to," she reasoned.
"Well then here I am revealing whatever emaotions that I have inside of me. What do you have to say about that?" she cried out, hoping that somehow, some of the frustration and anger would disappear.
"But, you're not supposed to."
"I only show what others expect to see. I have to be strong. But somehow, the strength is fading away. Slowly, but surely."
"But you're not supposed to."
"I can't go on with this facade anymore! I can't live up to everyone's expecations, I can't live up to my expectations. I can't even control my emotions, my false facade. The mask is fading. I'm letting the act drop down on me now, and forever."
"But you're not supposed to," she smiled, tears running down her cheeks, "I'm absolutely sure you can do it, that you still can keep it up."
"But HOW?!" she shrieked, "How would you know the feeling of being let down by yourself? The hopelessness of it, the pain. Knowing that the firm wall you've built around yourself is not crumbling away with your resolve?"
"Because," she smiled again, but she lowered her head such that her bangs shadowed her eyes, "You remind me of someone. Someone, like me."
- got from jinghan's blog.
see the irony. the paradox. the ambivalence of it all.
because you were not supposed to.
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i dont know why it is all happening. when i thought i've already become so numb to all those.
i have to chiong alot of stuff, alot of deadlines to meet. i cant start on anything now, now that my mind is all occupied.
everything's making me addlepated, and i'm like a little kid lost in the middle of a huge shopping centre, with everyone else jostling you, while you stand there confused and looking for your mother at the brim of tears.
i cant seem to sort out where my priorities lie. i cant seem to understand why am i thinking so much of those small little pebbles, when i have way much larger boulders to care about.
it's like really challenging to put on an all jovial face on the outside and talking crap and making people laugh, but inside everything else is scarred. everything is dark. and gloomy. but i guess, it's a matter of getting numb to it. getting numb to it all.
it's like the whole world is crashing. what's the use of my purpose here on this earth, when you feel like a total waste? a total loser? what's the use of my existence then;
i know i shouldnt be questioning all this, i shouldnt be so pessimistic. Cos He does everything for a purpose. but i dont think i have a choice or perhaps i actually do.
i'm on the verge of breaking down any moment.
please, dont ask.
Monday, May 12, 2008
heyyos people. yeah i know i can see the blog's pretty dormant, so time for an update yeah :D
okay mother's day dedication post :D
haha okay to start with, i was watching mannan yesterday, and got so inspired by the touching song, and so which was the reason for my msn nick. and dear MULTI-LINGUIST ria, was curious of what it meant, and it became a languages translating session. here you go! :D
TAMIL[original]
amma enrazhaikkadha uyirillaiyae, ammavai vanangaadhu uyarvillaiye;
naeril nindru paesum dheyvam;
ENGLISH
there's no life [as in nobody] in this earth who doesnt call mother, there's nobody in this universe who doesnt 'worship' the mother;
[mother is] a person who's in the form of god;
URDU
duniya mein aisa koyi shaqs nahi jo maa ko aawaaz na deta ho ho, saari qayanat mein aisa nahi jo maa ki ibaadat na karta ho;
maa khuda ka doosra roop hota hai;
HINDI
sansaar mein us prakar ka koyi nahi hai jo apni mata ko bulata na ho, sarvatr antariksh mein aisa vyakti nahi jo maa ki pooja na karta ho;
maa saakshaat ishwar hoti hai;
BENGALI
jogoth-e emon keyo na je maa-ke daake na, pooro bishsho, aar orchhe aage, emon lok paabena je maa ke pronaam kore na;
maa holo bhogobaan-er onno roop;
yeah, that's about it for the translation. credits once again to RIA! :D
went googling on mothers day and stuff, out of boredom. came across a few really good meaningful stuff. one that i liked most. i mean, it really really makes alot of sense. like how often do you see your mum crying and stuff? okay here you go:
WHY MOTHERS CRY
"Why are you crying?" he asked his mom.
"Because I'm a mother," she told him.
"I don't understand," he said.
His mom just hugged him and said, "You never will!"
Later the little boy asked his father why Mother seemed to cry for no reason.
"All mothers cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.
The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why mothers cry. So he finally put in a call to God and when God got on the phone the man said, "God, why do mothers cry so easily."
God said, "You see son, when I made mothersthey had to be special.
I made their shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort.
I gave them an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times come from their children.
I gave them a hardiness that allows them to keep going when everyone else gives up, and to take care of their families through sickness and fatigue without complaining.
I gave them the sensitivity to love their children under all circumstances, even when their child has hurt them very badly.
This same sensitivity helps them to make a child's boo-boo feel better and helps them share a teenager's anxieties and fears.
I gave them a tear to shed. It's theirs exclusively to use whenever it's needed. It's their only weakness.
It's a tear for mankind.
well, now you know why mothers cry. it's like sometimes you get really pissed off with all the nagging and just feel like yelling to shut up[well, it happens for me].but thinking about it, it's all for our own well-being and stuff. really, i think mothers are defintely the most greatest beings, next to God, ever existent on this earth. they are truly miracles which IS the reason why God chose them to be our mothers.
amma, i love you. <3
Saturday, April 19, 2008
it's at this time when you regret, looking back. regret that you've slacked so much. regret that you could have spent less time sleeping (in class). regret that you've only gotten, and never give. regret that you've wasted your time away. regret that you've wasted your life away.
oh why does time pass so fast. i looked at the mya schedule, and was like, "IT'S HALF A YEAR ALR". and looking back at my previous posts, or my new year resolution of working real hard this year, i feel like a waste. i feel like a loser. i lack self-discipline, self-focus.
i'm not particularly referring to mya. loads of other stuff has been happening too. i need the strength to get through all these. no, not physical strength, but mental strength.
and, i'm on the verge of breaking down any moment.
oh, and please i don't want to talk about it.Labels: mental strength, strength
Sunday, March 30, 2008
i learnt a lesson recently.
hard work doesnt always reap good results. sometimes, you work so hard, and then nobody seems to appreciate what you've down and you realised what you have worked hard or, what you really really wanted, all has gone to waste. i'm refering to a particular thing that happened recently.
i dont wish to elaborate. you guys know what i mean.
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anyway, good luck for sorkalam debators. we are sure gonna rock down sorkalam, yeah? :D and even if we dont get in to the finals, dont feel sad, cos we all know how hard you guys have prepared for, and reaching the semi-finals stage that will be telecasted on tv is really a big big honour for both the school and you guys. so, go give it your best! :D
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
cleared tribune cupboard with karen, yuqing, julia, selene and pam today. saw this piece of paper, which contains alot of meaning.an abstract of it :
[italised some stuff, that i feel strongly about.]
Lord,
Because love is patient...
Help me to be slow to judge, but quick to listen.
Hesitant to criticise, but eager to encourage, remembering your endless patience with me.
Because love is kind...
Help me to be gentle and my actions to be thoughtful.
Remind me to simle and to say "Please" and "Thank You" because those little things still mean so much.
Because love does not envy or boast, and it is not proud...
Help me have a heart that is humble and sees the good in others.
May I celebrate and appreciate all that I have and all that I am, as well as doing the same for those around me.
Because love is not rude or self-seeking...
Help me to speak words that are easy on the ear and on the heart.
When I'm tempted to get wrapped up in my own little world, remind me there's a big world out there full of needs and hurts.
Because love is not easily angered and keeps no record of wrongs...
Help me to forgive others as you have forgiven me.
When I want to hold onto a grudge, gently help me release it so I can reach out with a hand of love instead.
Bcause love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth...
Help me stand up for what is right and good.
May I defencd the defenseless and help the helpless. Show me how I can make a differece.
Because love always protects and always trusts...
Help me to be a refuge for those around me.
When the world outside is harsh and cold, may my heart be a place of acceptance and warmth.
Finally because love always perseveres...
Help my heart continually beat with love for You and others. Thank you for showing me what the word really means. Amen
I think it's a really good one. Means really alot. Go reflect, and you'll get what I mean. :D
oh and a quote
"my brain is like a drawer. need to sort it out at times" - long jian. [at least he said something like this] haha i think it's a cute analogy though.
and yeah, my life needs some serious sorting up and arranging too, now that it's super screwed. with alot of stuff.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
YAY, 60TH POST! :D
and there IS something to celebrate, for this post.
RG ICS DEBATE TEAM GOT INTO SORKALAM 2008 SEMI-S!
yeah man, i knew we'd rock and you guys could do it. my premonition proved right again, and i did foresee we'll get in :D oh and i was sure glad that i came down for the quarter finals to support, cos the round of RGS vs CHONG BOON proved something really important:
STRENGTH DEFINITELY DOES NOT COME IN NUMBERS ONLY.
yeah, we had like 12 supporters, but AWESOME people, and it was kinda scary to see like the whole chong boon indian kootam to come and support. and we still won! :D oh, and congrats chong boon; you guys did really well too! :D
butttt, even if strength does not come in numbers, it DOES play a role in offering moral support to our dear debators. so rg ics people, PLEASE come and support rg in the semi finals against deyi! :D [yeah, it'll be broadcasted on tv]
okay next, haha let me talk about the cheering part. haha cos we were like really really nervous+anticipated+excited when the results were like about to be announced. oh and razia got best speaker. CONGRATS RAZIA! :D
okay back to the point, apparently the winning school was supposed to like stand up and cheer till the camera man says stop. so when they were like announcing rg, we were super super elated and were cheering our heads of like anything haha. :D
oh and we decided to cheer some raffles cheers, the say ra-ra-ra-raffles, say ra-ra-ra-raffles, say ra-ra-ra raflles, *clap* *clap* *clap* RAFFLES. haha so, the camera person found it fascinating, so he asked us to like take center stage and do it again, facing the camera cos he wanted to video it [and broadcast it?]. hahaha, and yeah man we were LOW and LOUD. [remember, RGS girls and their LOW growls?]
well, there was something that me and some others were disappointed about from the quarter finals yesterday.
i hope this does not offend anyone, cos i dont mean to. i'm not really accusing anyone here, but some schools can just be not-so-sporty players? well, yesterday while we were waiting for the debators to be done with their debrief, we were hanging out outside the 'theater'. yeah, and like a few metres from where we were, we witnessed an ongoing 'debate'. the teacher of like chong boon sec, and some other sec school was expressing her disappointment of the debate. it was perfectly fine, but it involved us. they were like arguing and complaining that the judges were unfair, how could both rg and ri get into semi finals, and about if they keep letting us win, when would they get a chance and all. overall, they just wanted to get in and were accusing that the debate was biased. oh well, the schools DID get their chance, right? oh and i'll never forget this statement, "next year, we will definitely kick RGS out of the competition. DEFINITELY" [directly translated from tamil] well, i mean even if rg lost this round, we would not be like filled with so much angst to accuse the judges and all. i know we'll be sad, but we'll work harder? oh well.
okay, that's about it for this post. till then wait for me next time, and wish RG debators good luck in the next round of the debate. whatever the result is of the debate, we'll be proud of you guys, and of rg ics debate! :D
Sunday, March 2, 2008
hey. long time no blog. usual.
i realised the gap between pri sch frends and me is getting bigger. we're all getting busier, but i guess sometimes we must take a break and recall the wonderful memories.
had a convo with LIM jiayi <3 just now. seemed a long time back since we had an informal chat like this. haha, you'll know what i mean; see my printscreens.
heck it doesnt load now. nvm, some other day. meanwhile, here's something coped from FELLY dear's blog. :D It's really meaningful, yeah! (:
God said: I miss talking with you.
I said: What? I just prayed on Sunday.
How often do you talk with Katie?
I dunno.
Think about it.
Well, OK. Let's see . . . we usually hang together before school, then we have English and math together. And — oh yeah — we've got study hall together in the afternoon. And lunch, I forgot about lunch. We eat lunch together every day.
So how often do you talk with Katie?
I guess all the time. We call each other a few times during the week to check on homework stuff. And we instant-message a lot in the evenings when we're both on the computer. I'd say we pretty much talk all the time. After all, she is my best friend!
How often do you talk with Me?
I don't know.
Think about it.
Sigh. Well . . . on Sundays at church — and at youth group. You know.
I'd love to talk with you more.
But God, I already give You chitchat time.
I want more than chitchat. I'd like for you to tell Me everything.
Everything?
Why not? I already know what you're thinking anyway.
Yeah. And that's just it! If You know everything, what's the big deal about me having to talk with You?
Having to talk? Hmmm. I was hoping it would be more of an enjoyment instead of an obligation.
Ah, You know what I mean.
You're right, I do. And that's exactly what hurts Me. Most of the time when you speak with Me, it's because you feel you're supposed to, or it's because your back is against the wall and you need help — fast.
I didn't know You felt that way.
My child, I paid the highest price I could pay for you. I long to be with you and to hear you voice your thoughts, your joys, your tears, your loneliness, your victories.
Well, OK. If it really means that much to You. But I still don't get this prayer thing. If You already know what I'm going to say before I even say it, what's the point in telling You?
It's the process.
Huh?
Remember last week when Katie took first place in the track meet?
Sure! I remember. Boy, was she excited!
Yes. And you were, too.
Well, yeah. I am her best friend. You know.
But you actually heard about it before Katie told you.
Oh, yeah! Jason told me before I even saw Katie.
But when Katie rushed to you, waving her ribbon, you were just as happy and proud for her as if you were hearing the news for the first time.
Yeah.
That's friendship. That's relationship. That's love. Would you have wanted her to keep the news from you because you already knew?
No way! I love it when Katie gets excited. Her face lights up with that crooked grin, and her eyes glow like sparklers.
I feel the same way.
Hmmm.
I not only love for you to tell Me everything — I can't wait to hear it!
I think I'm starting to understand.
I'm not finished with Katie yet.
Oh?
Yeah. Let's keep talking about your friendship for just a bit longer.
OK.
The more you two share (secrets, giggles, notes), and the more you two do (trips together, youth group parties, football games), the closer you become.
So it's doing stuff that makes us such great friends, right?
Partly right. But I really want you to think about this, OK?
OK.
It's also the p-r-o-c-e-s-s.
I'm thinking.
The time invested in sharing and doing.
Yeah. I get it. We're sort of investing ourselves in each other's lives.
Exactly. And your friendship is growing because of it.
Yeah! Cool.
Do you hear what I'm saying?
Keep talking. I'm listening, God. I really am. I want to get this.
Your relationship with Me is pretty static right now.
Static?
Yeah. Dull. Boring.
I didn't think You noticed stuff like that.
I'm God, remember?
Oh, yeah.
But it doesn't have to be static. Don't forget. I died so we could have a relationship — an exciting, fun relationship, not a boring one.
Well, what can I do?
Spend more time with Me. Talk to Me. When you cry, let Me wipe your tears. When you ace a history exam, share your good news with Me. When Lisa snubs you in the hallway, tell Me how bad it hurts. I want our relationship to grow.
Wow. Lord, I've never even thought of all that. I mean, why would You be so interested in my everyday, ordinary life?
Because I love you. Oh, how I love you!
Jesus, I'm sorry. I've pretty much left You on the shelf. I mean, yeah, I go to church, and I even read my Bible at times, and people know I'm a Christian. But You want me to grow in You too, and I haven't been — I've been static, just like You said. Will You forgive me?
I forgive you.
Jesus, I want to have a best-friend, Lord-of-Lords relationship with You. I want You to own me and consume me.
Yes! That's what I want, too. And you know what?
What?
I love the way you're praying right now.
Praying? I'm not praying. We're just talking.
Yeah. And that's exactly what prayer is.
I get it.
Open, honest, consistent communication.
I can't wait till tomorrow morning.
Why's that?
I'm going to get up early and pray.
You don't have to wait till tomorrow morning. Talk to Me when you get up at 1:30 a.m. to go to the bathroom.
Really?
Sure! And at 3 a.m. when you're tossing in bed and scrunching your pillow.
Hey! How'd You know I always? . . . Oh, yeah, You're God.
Right.
Well, in that case, how about hanging out right now? I've got some stuff I need to talk with You about.
Great. This is the moment I've been waiting for.+
sometimes, we're too busy with our lives that we have no time for God. But God is and will always be our companion if we really need someone to talk to. He's always there for us, anytime; anwhere! (:
PRAISE THE LORD! :D
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
today was a bad day.
and just when i am super pissed and feel like ranting it all to my blog, blogger refuses to recognise my account. to HELL WITH BLOGGER. !@$%#!$@%!#$%!@!#^%!^%#^%!
sorry, if this doesnt concern you, but this is the main reason why i am blogging.
i know i am older than you and all, but this doesnt mean you can shout at me all you want. it's like if you want something, you need it then, right away. and you shout, scream and yell at me like anything. you refuse to believe what i say. and on top of that you go around crying saying it's all my fault. yeah thanks, it IS my fault and i was lying, which was why you found it in the end YOURSELF. and it's no use stucking up to me then, just because you need my help. It's like...when you need me you suck up to me; when you dont, you chuck me. yeah i know, this is my worth. do all you want, and please do not come to me for anything, cos i'll 'screw it all up', right? just leave me alone, will you? i got my own life to live. i dont care if i am bottling it all up, LEAVE ME ALONE and i'll be more than happy.
if i yell/shout or scold you on msn or on the phone, it's not your fault.
i really hope things get better, or perhaps i'll get better
Friday, February 8, 2008
heyyos people!
trying my very very best to mug math now. i thought algebra is fun, but then ah, it's so hard. i wanna master math and [hopefully] physics by today, and some random subjects tmr, and homework on sunday. though i have a really really strong feeling that I wont be able to complete any of the following lah haha.
SAs also coming like real real real soon man! i need to start sleeping less!
and on top of that, i gotto familiarise myself for the innovation programme launch at nanyang poly script,the one that i'm emceeing. ahhh too many things but too little time.
i need His help and guidance to bring me through this, and I believe He will.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Yay, i'm back!
Firstly,
THANKS PEOPLE FOR MAKING MY BIRTHDAY A REALLY SPECIAL ONE! THANKS FOR ALL THE PRESENTS AND THE WISHES AND FOR MAKING MY DAY BRIGHT AND SHINE!
Okay, now a photo update on prezzies! :D Anyways, it's the THOUGHT that counts, YEAH! :D
MY PRESENTS! :D
BELGIUM chocs from JACLYN TAY! thanks LOADS JACLYN! :DDDDDD <33333
dear little and nicccce anabelle koong gave me THIS! :D
AND MY WONDERFUL FRIEND, ALDREA LEONG gave this chocolate! yay aldrea <333
my fellow wonderful tribuner aka nice frend aka photoshop expert aka FANTABULOUS KAREN gave me this cool anf funkayye packet of gummies! :D <3
yay, from my darling deskmate cum mugging mate in sec 1, IVANA! :D &&& MORE CHOCOLATES!!!! :DDDDD
& this from my fellow v.chair, aka ms southeastasia, aka ADE! :D
winnie the pooh! - from fellow ino-ers, kinnari and lavanya! (:
from xinyi(110'080)! (:
and my eight-year-long-friend since P1, aka sindhuja gave me..THIS! :D
from smrithi, the oldest in 207! :D
this is from ziyu jie! yay i'm as old as you are now jie!
Prezzie from ELAINE dear :D
Thanks loads people for all the prezzies, well wishes and all. It's the thought that counts and thanks for making me feel special, unique and especially remembered by all of you guys on my once-a-year day! :D
I'M OFFICIALLY FOURTEEN! Started counting down for this like 3 months ago. COUNTDOWNS are indeed fast okay! (:
yeah, thanks to all these people who wished me exactly on the dot,and many others who gave me advanced wishes:
- ms sexy hot babe, AARTHI <3
- my dear dear p6 NICCCE classmate, LIM JIAYI <3
- my dear thinkquest group mate, RUIXUAN <3
- my greeaaattt tribune v.chair, JIAYING <3
- my wonderful 107'07 v.chair, GRACE TAN <3, who was supposed to go off at 11.55pm and I dragged her on!
- my sister's friend, PEI YING <3, and for all her well wishes
and not forgetting,
- our dear PSB vice-chair 2007, aka 107'07 PSL, who HAPPENS TO SHARE THE SAME BDAE AS ME, TAMMY <3
HAPPY 17TH BDAE TAMMY! MAY ALL YOUR WISHES AND DREAMS OF 2008 COME TRUE! :D
AND ALL THOSE WHO WISHED ME AN ADVANCED BDAE in one way or another! Thanks loads guys!
And thanks for making my 13th year a wonderful one! <333!
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Now, give me my prezzies! :P
lol kidding!
Monday, January 14, 2008
heyyos people (: time for an update.
school has been great so far. workload is starting to pour in though. expected.
today's lit lesson was so so exceptionally funny and i laughed till i cried and had hiccups a couple of times. no, not the teacher, because of group work. aarthi, the usual funniest member of the group, was up to usual nonsense. no offence, aarthi.
Okay apparently we were supposed to write a haiku(5-7-5) and tanka (5-7-5-7-7)about poetry, if i am not wrong, during lit lesson and discuss it as a group.
okay so, what my wonderful group did was laughing away with random phrases of haiku sentences, such as "obama or osama; george bush or hitler" and stuff. In the end we wanted something FIERY. Lols. The haiku we managed to write:
Cool and blue it flows
Reflects a burning passion
A secret unveiled
Cool right? Okay the funny part is when it came to the tanka. i have no idea who started it okay. In the end, after terrible laughter with people falling off chairs, we aarthi, ade and smrithi came up with one. I am innocent okay!
It is:
Poetry is bliss
Come and give me a hot kiss
When you come dont hiss
Melting like hot chocolate
Literature, you are bliss
PLS, NO WRONG INTENTIONS.
Haha at that time when we wrote this, we were laughing like mad idiots, when our lit teacher, Ms De Silva (new lit teacher taking over mrs clara tan. she's a relief teacher), came and saw what was written. The conversation:
MS DE SILVA: so what have you guys written so far?
GROUP: (covers the tanka, laughing)
AARTHI: Nvm, let's just show our creativity la.
ME: Please, no wrong intentions
MS DE SILVA: (reads it, shocked) you guys are too young for this.
AARTHI: (decribing VERY vividly) no, i mean we have a really STRONG passion for literature, and through this tanka, which is so romantic, it is expressed. See our CREATIVITY
MS DE SILVA: You people ahhh!
GROUP: Aarthi is the youngest here. we are seated according to our birthdays.
MS DE SILVA: NO WONDER!
GROUP: (laugh like anything)
MS DE SILVA: but what is mrs tan sees it?
AARTHI: we'll be able to explain it.
MS DE SILVA: Now that you guys have done, write another one.
AARTHI: No problem, we'll write another PASSIONATE one.
MS DE SILVA: WHAT?!
AARTHI: No la, just kidding. We'll be serious.
MS DE SILVA: Okay. I'll come back again.
HAHAS, and then we broke up laughing. Then we had a random caht when aarthi suddenly mentioned that she actually thinks that short people SHOULD model, cos if they got the figure, they can model well. LOLS. Then she said of how she wanted to start a modelling agency. criteria:below the height of 1.6m and we were like, aarthi, you model for the teapot industry ah? ROFLOL. Then we were telling joey, about aarthi's modelling agency and we were like, criteria number 2, you need to know how to stand like a teapot cos the theme song is gna be, I'm a little teapot short and stout. HAHAS!!!
Anyway, we came up with a PROPER tanka at last, AND IT STILL HAS SHAKESPEARE AND HITLER! This is REALLY creative okay!
Shakespeare or Hitler
Both have impacted the world
Poetry or War
Drop of hope in sea of war
Provides light when hope is lost.
LOL, if you look at it in the surface meaning, it means, during war people are reading shakespeare's work like MERCHANT OF VENICE. Hahas. can you imagine if the people are like, run run, the soldiers are coming and bla, and you will be like, NONONO, I want to know what happened to Portia! LOLLLLLL!
And we asked Ms De Silva what she wants to be when she grows up (our favourite question for all our relief teachers haha). She said she doesnt know and we were telling her about aarthi's modelling ambition. HAHAS, and someone said that aarthi will be the advertiser for TRIUMPH. LOL!
All I can say it was a funny lesson with me hicupping often from all the laughter and a possibly sick and CREATIVE lesson (in AARTHI's perspective). HAHAS!
How'd I wish school had so much fun like this. [NOT IN THE SICK SENSE]. Livens the day up! (:
And on a sidenote, I feel so guilty. I have not been keeping in touch that much with my dear Rulang friends. D: Realised it when I spoke to LIM JIAYI after a long time ytd, AND SHE STILL REMEMBERS MY BIRTHDAY! YAY JIAYI! <3333 I hope I can still keep in touch with them, cos they mainly made up my primary part of my life. (:
Okay, that's about it. Wait for the next update (:
Take care peeps! <333
Saturday, January 5, 2008
hey peeps!
I know this is a bit late, but better late than never.
HAPPY NEW YEAR! and all the best for the [hopefully] wonderful year ahead.
School has started. So far so good. It has finally sunk in me that we're already sec 2s with all those little ones looking up to us (: And somehow, it seems like a big responsibility. Haha, maybe this is just the starting. And yeah, 207'08 rocks like totally mannn! <3333
I really dont know what sec 2 is gonna be like. Just my impression I have in mind is : it's gonna be harder than sec one (duh), and there's no time to slack. Hopefully I reduce procrastination this year, cos though procrastination rocks for a while, it sucks overall.
All I can say is, looking forward to a [hopefully] positive year ahead! (:
Sunday, December 30, 2007
i learnt an important lesson recently.
i should learn to be more selfish. yes. i really should be more selfish. speaking out for what i really want and not give in just because i want the best for people. yes, i've neglected myself alot this year.
i always wanted the best to all those that matter to me. i wanted to give them the best i could. but many a time, not me realising it just turns back and hurt me. the ones who i felt i had my hopes on scold me, hate me and misunderstand me. but why?
suddenly, my blogskin makes alot of sense to me. it's true. very true. must there be a secret me i'm forced to hide? why must we all conceal? now i see if i wear the mask, i can fool the world but i can never fool my heart.
oh well. i guess it's time to reflect.
i still havent discovered my purpose on earth, my purpose in this world
Monday, December 24, 2007
Hey people. Long time never blog eh?
Okay, I'll blog. My dedications for the year SUPPOSED to be up by end of today, but I guess the reason why it's still not up it's due to the most common unaccepted accepted reason : PROCRASTINATION! :D
2007 has been a year of ups and downs, like every other year. Downs mainly, but after every so-called 'down', there's a valuable lesson learnt. A lesson that no books can teach. And the lesson is called EXPERIENCE. Hey it's true okay! You cant gain experience from just reading books and stuff. You need to go through it. And after each experience, there's a learning point, or for the matter point(S). Stuff that you realise your mistake from. Stuff where you discover your true self. Like the tamil saying says:
yethu nathanthetho, athu nandraghave nathanthathu.
yethu nathakiretho, athu nandraghave nathatkirethu.
yethu nathaka poakiratho, athu nandraghave nathakkum.
Direct Translation being:
Whatever that happened, it happened for good.
Whatever that is happening, it's happening for good.
Whatever that is gonna happen, it is gonna happen for good.
This saying has a really really deep underlying meaning. Things happen for a reason and God does things for a reason. Despite all these downs, I know and can bravely tell myself that I have gained alot from all these. Learning points that not only will help me in my schooling years, but will also guide me in future, in my life.
I really owe alot of people thanks these year. No, not thanks but gratefulness that cant be expressed in words. All those people who always have been there for me throughout all these years, or drop a hi sometimes to check on me, or cheer me up when I really needed it, etc. You know I may not have said it in person, but deep inside my heart I really feel it; the genuinity of all this small yet subtle actions. And everytime I feel it, I thank God for all the wonderful stuff that he's given me: wonderful family, wonderful friends, wonderful seniors, wonderful juniors, wonderful teachers, etc. The list can just be going on and on. It's just endless...
Even if you dont know me personally or whatsoever, just as long as you are reading this blog post highlights to me how much I mean to you that you even BOTHER to read my blog. I dunno how you guys take it, but yeah, I am grateful! Trust me.
And also to those people who SPAMS my email inbox with all those natpu and friendship emails. Haha! I am not meaning it in a negative kindof way...but just want to tell you how much I appreciate it. Cos, usually it's just that I am too carried on with other commitments, like schwork, cca, academic and all these kind of stuff. But I kinda guess that I usually feel stressed. And this little sweet emails on friendship, that you will always be there and stuff, are what that makes my day. I know it when people send these emails out of sincerity, and not because of, "oh, i dont want 10 years of bad luck", etc. And yet, these little emails are what that make me smile, in the midst of all my work and everything.
Once again, thanks for everything, everyone.
Friday, December 7, 2007
Hey people.
This announcement caters to all 6R'06 people. class reunion details have been confirmed. please take note.
PLACE: fuji ice palace
TIME: 10am to [unlimited]
DATE: wednesday, 19 dec 2007
MEETING PLACE: jurong east MRT station [outside the place where you tap your ez-link] at 9.45am. 15 minutes grace given, so please reach latest by 10am.
WHAT TO BRING:
-gloves [impt, wont be allowed to skate without them. you can purchase them though for 2 bucks a pair]
-socks ([ong ones please if you guys dont want blisters on your feet]
-jacket[if you are afraid it might be cold. aiya, it's normal aircon anyway]
-student's special admission fee of $11.60. hey, it's cheap okay, as compared to the other days.
-extra money if you want to purchase gloves
-money for lunch. we need to dapao lunch before we enter, cos we cant go out from the rink when we've entered.
-anything else you want to bring
if you guys only can make it at a later time, go ahead and come join us at the rink(: and please help spread this message round to all 6R people! let's all make this reunion cum outing a successful one, YEA!
PS: hog wont be coming so dont have to worry xD
Thursday, December 6, 2007
